i hate college. i don’t feel welcome. i feel as though nobody likes, wants to hang around with or be seen with me. even my best friend doesn’t seem to care. he just seems more interest in making new friends (and let’s face it, cooler people than me). i miss my high school. this morning, i was in the shower looking at the water running of my fringe and just thinking how much i want to go back there. it was my comfort zone. i felt accepted there. but college is full of judgemental, pretentious people. even the teachers don’t seem to care. i daren’t tell my family i want to go my high school’s sixth form. because i’d like i’ve let them down. i’d then have to sort out all the forms and ring people up. i’ve got about a week to make my decision. i want to tell my mum. but i feel like she doesn’t really take an interest in what i do. when she rings me. our phone calls are on average about 40 seconds long. i’m losing touch with my family and friends (and there’s no way i can stop it). at this very moment: i feel so alone.

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